I relate to so many of you. Hi, I am new. I am here because I have tried thru the last few years to lose weight and not succeeded. I got to the point of looking up how to change self-destructive behavior. For the first time in my life I am to be tested on sugar and if I am diabetic. And here I have been, drinking sugar drinks and eating sugar and carbs. I asked myself, I KNOW that test is coming, just like weigh-ins of the past, and I not only don't succeed at changing-I add to the problem. I need to permanently change this.