Ipse, I'm guessing you are not a minor.....if you don't feel like being in therapy just now, that's your choice...no need to feel badly about this decision at all....if at any time in the future you decide you prefer the pain of therapy over the pain of internal anguish you may want to give it another shot....if not with this t then maybe with another....whatever you decide for yourself, may you find peace within yourself....and take gentle care...I look forward to hearing from you here...as you are an insightful person....