I do not know what has happened exactly, but I seem to have shrunk back in to myself and am stuck on the verge of feeling something...but nothing will come.

I have pulled back from my therapist, and actually feel like having a break from therapy. I told him this last week, he looked surprised, then wanted to figure out why. I am not sure why.

It seems like I am defending myself from something, but I am not sure what. I got to feeling close to my T a couple weeks ago, trust really developing, so not sure why I feel like pulling back now. We talked about doing more dedicated skills work, maybe a workbook, some diary work etc so that I can be ready for looking at the memories. Trauma work, which I want to get done with. I need this all to be done.

So I don't know why I am this way right now....stuck

I feel........vaguely on the verge of annoyance all the time, the occasional flash of the beginning of some other emotion.........then just blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Nothing! I can't figure this out, and it is not pleasant!

Anyone else experience this? It is really bothering me to not really feel any specific emotions. I want to feel, I want to get through this and feel what I need to, to be done with it all.

Blergh!