Daisy1916, staying with a person for the children's sake wouldn't be fair to anyone. When my wife left me I used that on her. Turns out it was the right thing to do for everyone involved. You can't force someone to be happy or fulfilled. Being hard on yourself is normal. Getting your son into therapy is a great idea. Please be strong and know that there are many others in the same situation and have come through it all. You will too.