You are right. With eight months behind me there should be no reason to start again... I guess the part of me that is a creature of habit wanted to ..there for a couple days...I am over it for now.. It concerns me that I was trying to rationalize at all that it is good for me in anyway. I guess I just have to keep myself busy...so I don't have time for them thoughts..taking it day by day..thanks for your support and insight.