Thank you both for your replies. I own a 130 year old home I bought before I went on disability. At some point I'll probably have to sell because historic is not the most practical, but both of my parents are alive and supportive so I'm very blessed. I found out that on SSDI, or any disability at that rate, it is basically impossible to work. My medicare coverage is excellent, and my mental health is no guarantee of lasting employment. After medicare and mortgage I have $416 left on my ssdi check lol. Oh well, I'm not going to go ape ****. I know that being on disability is something many, many people need and are unable to receive. The good thing about paying into the system (ssdi) is that profit from selling a house or an inheritance doesn't change my disability status. Because I can't work I would like to spend the time working on free-lance writing - short stories and maybe a novel.

I read a small quote about architectural happiness and it makes sense. I have heard that a cluttered home keeps a cluttered mind, and this was basically saying people need calm surroundings. My husband doesn't use a shop for his construction so the yard is like Sanford & Son's. It makes me so depressed, and the inside is also really dreary. I don't ever feel like cleaning, and I'm embarrassed when people see me leave the house. He has 3/4 of an acre full of dead tree limbs, paint buckets, ladders, huge piles of random free crap from other jobs and over grown bushes in front of the house that makes us look like hoarders. I used to think I was a really shallow person if I didn't overlook his yard. But now I see that it has been negative to look out the window or walk out every morning and see all of this garbage.

Thank you all again for letting me know that this can be done!