I have never been "unable" to control my emotions ever since I started a relationship with someone suffering from bipolar disorder. I try my very hardest to be helpful to my boyfriend by lending an ear and promoting communications, avoiding situations which may cause his triggers, creating a positive atmosphere, etc. But, in turn I have set aside all of the emotions that I feel and have become a ball of fire and I can't control my emotions since I have no one to talk to. I just want to talk to my parents and close friends, but it just seems like they will never understand. People will begin to forget about the amazing person he is if I being venting about being a bipolar caregiver. Its frustrating. I am becoming angry. I just punched a box multiple times and it felt good. That is when I decided that I needed to join a forum. If I am releasing my anger this way now, what else will I decide to do? I really need help. I feel lost, out of control, emotional, helpless, afraid of my future with him, frustrated, confused......