With treatment, things can improve, it isn't easy and it will be a lifelong battle. A couple of months ago I was feeling hopeless, I had no expectation of remission. Like you I'm good with words but perceive myself as socially illiterate. Depression erodes and undermines, it takes away and destroys, but with the right defences (meds, therapy) it can be held back and the damage repaired. I was wrong about myself and I hope your situation changes for the better too.