Hello
My depression has effect me for around 2+ years and I did get it sorted in the end, however after a few days ago I have been feeling really down and paranoid. I talk to my close friends a lot when I'm feeling down and to see what is the problem but this time I know what is the problem. I have been hiding my private life away from my family because I don't want to tell them everything I do on the internet and if they do find out I don't think I will be able to see my friends anymore. My brother has been poking me a lot and he thinks that it is a joke but it really isn't I try to say to him about it but he tells me to shut up and he also calls me a stupid idiot..

I want to do more things but I can't I hate going outside I'm afraid that people will just stare at me and just laugh at me behind my back. The closest thing to being outside is my backyard which is not private apart from the fences. I hope one day I can leave the house and live with one my friends and I wouldn't need to worry about anything.