Keep talking or texting. At least there's someone who's willing to listen. THAT counts, bit time! I struggle with suicidal thoughts almost every day, and no one I know is willing to discuss my emotions. I've found several inspirational posts on YouTube, notably Noah Elkrief. I'm not saying watching some of these blogs have helped, but I do keep coming back to them, so, in a sense, I guess it's kept my will to live going. It's worth a try.