I don't even know how to start this thread.

I have been in and out of therapy for over twenty-five years. Had some pretty horrendous therapy experiences. I am currently in therapy with an empathic T who I do not think would take advantage of me. Trust is earned.

I have had heart failure at least for fourteen years. I was told a year and a half ago that the heart failure has worsened and I need a heart transplant. But I do not meet the criteria for heart transplant. I was recently told that I am in great risk for Sudden Cardiac Death. I have been trying to wrap my head around this.

My therapy is going to shift focus to end of life issues.

I am 59. I am not taking the news very well. I feel kinda pissed.

I usually like to be supportive and helpful on PC, but please forgive me if I am not myself for a while.
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