Ok I have been reading lots but quiet in posting and responding. I can relate to all post being written so far. I gave it my best shot had a few decent days but most are typical of severe MDD. I am barely functioning I truly do a few basic things like brush my teeth everyday shower every 2. Beyond that I'm exhausted all the time. Bounce from that to crying spells off and on all day night. Sleep is a mess can sleep long than can't sleep. Hopelessness, no motivation,energy or desire to do anything. No interest in anything anymore at all.

So all though I still agree that my old med wasn't working and I needed to come off it after 2+ mths med free I need to start back up on a med. Dr had prescribed bupropion 2 mths ago if I needed to go back on to meds. I will be starting it tomorrow fingers cross that it works cause I damn near feel I need to be hospitalized it's that bad. I also get that dreaded fear just plain old scared a little anxiety. I find this depression fear is just horrid I'm not even thinking of anything it's just there the feeling.

Like we all do hope at times we can be without meds I hoped too I have done it before without, then with when needed. This time I need it. Hope it works and gives me that boost so I can feel well enough to get going on doing other things that will help me get stable.

Fingers crossed that this ones work so I can start to feel better and not have to bounce around trying to find the right one or combo. Been lucky in the past sermonette worked for me minor side effects got banned went off it cold turkey no withdrawals. Med free for years then on Celexa worked for many many years added trazadone for sleep. Weight gain a little sexual side effect glad to be without those now.. So this one will be the third I try hers to the same success.