I hope you find the support you need from your friends here and elsewhere. I also hope you don't give up on being supportive to others. I say this because helping others helps us and while you may be at risk for sudden death, no one knows when their final day will be so continue to live as best you can.

By the way, reading your post DID help me because I had dropped out of doing volunteer work for various reasons and I realized that I need to get back to it because I do enjoy helping others.

(((((precaryous))))) Thank you for sharing.