I just wrote a long post and somehow it got deleted!!!!
Forgiveness can equate to giving up
Giving up can equate to releasing the negative people in your life blood or no blood
Truth is the people who made us what we are don't know any better. In fact they more than likely see this as nothing wrong. They did the best they could!!! Whatever they want to believe it will never be up to us to show them any different as they cannot accept that.
When I found out I did everything possible to hurt my mother. Each time doing so it only made it worse for me. She is a master of no emotions, I laugh when all the sudden she tries to tell me she loves me. You see both my parents are very sick now. Age is a big factor on top of deteriorating health. I distance myself because this is what I need. I have to accept what it is, accept what is done but I never have to accept invites or conversations. Great lyrics form a song,"I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am" This is what I am working on. I am lucky to have a wife who see's me and doesn't run away. This will never be an easy process. I can write for hours and hours based on my insights from the time of finding out my label to now. About my childhood and how I was chosen to be the one to grow up with who and where I did. Maybe in the book....