Hi Craniac,
Welcome to PC. This is a good place to be, hope you keep posting. I am sorry you did not get what you needed in the VA service. I am not sure if you can do something to claim what you need and deserve (proper treatment, etc.) but perhaps here somebody could tell you. I know there is a program about job relocation for veterans in Syracuse University, but I think job is not a problem for you. Many of the feelings you are describing here could correspond to depression. I am not a doctor so I cannot really tell, but perhaps you would benefit from therapy or psychiatric orientation (meds, and so on). Sometimes being alone is an opportunity to go deeper and explore ourselves. It is painful, but it works longterm. To me, you are worthy, with or without a woman beside you. You deserve to be happy. And to be loved. OK, hope you continue posting here. Good luck with everything