I've suffered from depression all my life. I've been on meds for about 10 years. I so want to stop crying and feeling like a burden. I don't want to take my life as it would really hurt those I love. However, I'm just so tired of living. I've prayed over and over for God to take me. But He won't. It's not like I haven't tried- educated, good worker but oh so tired of the crap in this world. The unfairness of it all. My doctor said my dosing is already high. So now what? I mean is it really just physically getting your foot out of bed and faking it til you make it?