We all have our things that went on in our past that make us who we are. You feel that you will feel better if the person who did wrong to you is convicted of their crimes. Understand you completely. The difference between you and I is that I am not one to wait for someone to do something about it. I plan, build up anger to no end and figure ways to get back at the ones who I felt did wrong to me. You want a judge, I'd feel better being the judge for my own things(Just read back and I see all my N traits in the last sentence which is unhealthy). You see I have some of that fire building inside as I write back to you. I feel that you have misunderstood me which in turn makes me angry and also makes me want to attack you. Instead I am letting it go as I too have my narcissistic tendencies that I work to keep at bay. I do appreciate you coming to this forum as you have plenty of good things to write of which we typically don't see here. Just keep in mind that not all are the same and that each post is a double edge sword when it comes to the responses that come back. About a year ago or so I felt the need to call someone out on their self proclaimed narcissism. It made me feel strong as many others kept adding fuel to the fire and agreeing with all I had to say and even the one I attacked told me how much they agreed with me. Long story short someone there(different forum) PMd me and pointed out all my traits and flaws with what I did. At first I was so angry with what he or she told me but after looking deeper into what was said I realized how right they were. I was wrong, my action were wrong and I felt it. The only way to become better is to work on you and your flaws. Wanting revenge of what's "right" to happen will not make anything with you better. It seems you have small pockets of this happening. Your actions towards the people in your town and so on shows this. It's a very long road and one that usually is one step ahead, 25 back. I write here sometimes for fun, when I am in whirlwind effect, angry, confused, nuts and so on. Many times I am still writing just to see the reactions I get from others as in my "N" ways. I am going on two years and have made small strides in being better but am nowhere close to the end. Our minds will continue to trick us, make us believe we are doing right when in fact we are still doing exactly the same thing just with a different mask on. Anyway I wish you well and write as I see. Always my own mind working and not based off others. You may get it you may not.