I can relate to some of the things you are dealing with. I have not been diagnosed with OCD but read about it and realize that some of these things have an effect on me as well. For example, I do useless counting on objects...I can count the window on a building and break it down in my head by counting the corner of each window. I can be in bed and a thought would go through my head about checking the stove to make sure that a fire will not start and checking all the electric appliances. I have a huge fear of fires starting that i often have nightmares about a fire starting in a house I am in or near. I believe that OCD affects people differently. Some of your symptoms sounds like mines. I also have very bad thoughts about harming people that I love. That is the main reason why I am speaking out now. I am not just taking it one day at a time and hopeful I will be able to speak with someone who can help me. I hope the same happens to you