When i was a kid,i got bullied.That cause a psychological trauma.Now,i'm 14 to 15 years old.I can't go on in my life cause i am in caution all the time.I feel rock solid and i'm choking,i can't exercise for the last two weeks because my heartbeat has gone up to 255 beats per minute from the 180 that i had,I can't concentrate on my work,i can't seem to learn anything,i suffer from depression too,i had APD for some years,a blank mind all the timeno spirit and will, i'm ready to fall down all the time because i can't sleep at night,i tend to have flashes and thoughts of my childhood all the time,things that were childish fears but i have them too now because i can't relax and think and finally everyone i know is against me because they think i'm crazy and that i'm an *****.What i have and what should i do?Sorry for this but i'm in a situation that i think that i'm such a burden to others and i don't have a purpose in life.Please,i need to do something NOW.Someone post a good answer,please,i'm losing myself here...