But I'm not going to end my life, it's not because I want to live, it's because I don't want to die. Everyone else has problems, but it doesn't seem to bother them as much as it does to me, they more or less are 'living', they seem to be having fun, I'm not.

Looks like It's not going to get any better, so If I could go back in time, and I if I had a choice, I'd choose not to be born at all. All this seems a bit too much for me, life, emotions, relationships, sorrow, failure and everyday occurrences like that.

It seems that I keep coming back here, making thread after thread.