I don't know what to do. I'm so spent. I keep asking for help, but I don't think I'm being clear about it. I have a new therapist, and she's not really available. I don't want to land in the hospital. I don't know what they could do for me... I know I'm just panicking at the moment. I really wish I had someone I knew to talk to, but there's no one available. I don't want to do this anymore.