I'm sorry to hear how stressed you are Rebel. Try to take deep breaths and relax. Keep posting here, too. It helps to talk it through.

We can't tell you "what you have" as we are not professionals, but we can listen and offer support.

I suggest you talk to your parents or a trusted adult who can get you some professional assistance to work through this.

Ask your parents to make an appointment with the psychiatrist who diagnosed you with APD. (Antisocial or Avoidant?)That should be a good starting point.

Keep us posted and good luck

Petunia