Hello Rebel,

I am sorry that things are so bad for you. This is only a support site, and there is very little that we can do to help you, since we are far away and don't even know your name or location. It sounds like you really do need help in real life. Tell us any ideas you have of somebody you could talk to. Do you know a teacher, counselor, or other adult that you would be able to trust? How about your parents? There must be someone who cares about you and would like to help. I wish that we could do more here, but the best we can do is help you find someone IRL who can help.

If you can't go to someone you know, you can go to a hospital emergency room and tell them about your symptoms (or go to the school nurse and get a referral), or call a crisis line. They can refer you to someone who is qualified to help you too. Here are some numbers:

TOLL FREE

INTERNATIONAL

"Just Say No" International - Drug & Alcohol Help 800-258-2766 (24 hrs)
Other Listings by Country (TeenAdvice Online) Click Here - scroll to bottom of page for numbers
Crisis Centers Near You (Web Listings) Click Here - to find listings in your area

CANADA

Kid's Help Phone 1-800-668-6868 (24 hrs)
AIDS/Sexually Transmitted Diseases Info 1-800-772-2437
End Abuse - Domestic Assault Line 1-800-END-ABUSE (24 hrs)
Zenith Child Abuse Reporting & Help Dial the Operator and ask for "Zenith 1234" (24 hrs)

USA

Eating Disorders Help Line 1-800-382-2832 (24 hrs)
Domestic Abuse/Assault 1-800-333-SAFE (24 hrs)
Teen AIDS Line 800-234-TEEN (Mon-Fri) 800-440-TEEN (weekends)
National AIDS Line 1- 800-342-AIDS
National Teen Gay & Lesbian Hotline 1-800-347-TEEN (Thurs.-Sun., 7 pm-11:45 pm ET)
Family/Children's Mental Health Hot Line 1-800-654-1247 (24 hrs)
National STD Hotline 800-227-8922 (24 hrs)
Child help USA - Child Abuse Reporting 1-800/4-A-CHILD (24 hrs)
Family Violence Help Line 1-800/222-2000 (24 hrs)
National Runaway Hot Line 1-800-HIT-HOME (24 hrs)
Runaway Help Line 1-800-621-4000 (24 hrs)
Covenant House Crisis Support 1-800-999-9999 (24 hrs)
Suicide Help Line 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
Youth Crisis Line 1-800-448-4663
RAINN - Rape Support Line 1-800-656-HOPE
Pregnancy Support and Advice 1-888-4-OPTIONS
General Crisis Counselling 1-800-785-8111

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