I think it's wonderful you're trying to get help...some people won't and just blame everyone else. I feel the same as you about wanting a therapist to kind of "cater" to what I am thinking instead of following what I tend to believe is their misguided ******** on how to help someone. I try to see this resistance to them as my problem yet the resistance still comes out and I rage about how they can't understand ME. I hate it when people can't match my feelings and put their own on mine. Well I know you could give a hoot about how I feel. Really it's cool you're seeking help.