Hello SG.
I am very sorry that you are having such a hard time. I hope your therapy goes well with your new therapist. I also want to give you a hotline number to call in case you need to talk to someone in person. 1-800-DONT-CUT, and 1-800-273-TALK if you would like to talk to someone in person. Journaling your feelings may help some with the way you are feeling so isolated and alone at this time. Many people have had some success through meditation and martial arts as well to learn to redirect the anger and loneliness.There are also people in the chat room some of the time at psych Central if you need to talk to someone as well, where you can make some acquaintences so you will feel less alone. PM anytime. Take care Soidhonia