i so want a med to work on my MDD. i've just been coping with it for years. but i too get the anxiety before trying new meds. after not really trying anything for a few years (pregnancy and whatnot), i'm back to trying again. i tend end up with side effects - this last med left me so sick it was like morning sickness and i ended up with insomnia (which i'd been sleeping decently before). made me worse off now we're going to try another and i'm feeling the anxiety.

it's not bad to need meds. some of us... some of us just need something to grease the wheels.