A month ago I had some really big events that I wanted to be a part of, I was horribly depressed (but probably starting to improve due to new meds). I resolved to go along with everything and not spoil anyone else's time and to be part of those events no matter how bad I felt on the day. What happened was I got carried away with emotion and all the good feeling, excitement and atmosphere and just by being there I laid down some really good memories. At the time I didn't know whether I actually enjoyed myself or if in the moment I was happy, I just refused to allow my depression to get in the way of living for five days. Maybe that was faking it?

Well the good news is that it didn't hurt or harm me, it was exhausting for sure but with the way I was feeling then breathing was exhausting. At the end of it all, my mood fell somewhat flat while I dealt with the physical and emotional exhaustion but it didn't fall through the floor either. Now I can look back on what I did and have good memories of the time instead of the monotony of another depressed day.

My point is that it all depends on timing and focus. With the right stimulus then getting up and doing something positive can be hugely beneficial, but only if the timing is right. If you are on the downswing then the risk is that whatever you try won't be enough or it will overwhelm you. If you are at rock bottom then maybe you won't have the energy to initiate or sustain the effort. So in my experience the best time to try is when you have something special or important to aim for and when your meds/ therapy/ other treatment or coping strategies are kicking in a bit.

Until then, there's no need to fake anything just be yourself and concentrate on keeping at least comfortable and safe.