I ended up talking to my wife for a bit, and she reminded me i can take benadryl and sleep for a while. That was helpful... I'm trying to find yet another new therapist, but I doubt I'll be able to any time soon (financially limited to three organizations here:the one I'm at, one with a 6 month waiting list, and one with a 5 week waiting list). It's really frustrating.
I've called this t between sessions, and she would just send me to the er if I were suicidal and unable to stay safe (I can do that on my own if it gets that desperate). She doesn't have other availability. I keep trying to ask for more intensive help that is not inpatient, but it's very difficult to come by here...
I had gone out earlier in the day to the dog park. That helped a bit for the moment, but things were shot to **** again when I got home. I wish I could concentrate on reading or even watching tv or a movie or doing some art at times when the overwhelmed feeling sets in...
I really need more support, but have no idea how to get it right now. It sucks...