I believe what will heal you is time with a therapist who can accept you unconditionally. She needs.to be older than you, the age or your mother would be great, and she needs to be mature and intelligent, so she can not fall into your head games or react to your attacks.

I dont know of ive been a real narcissist. I have the wounds that could have made me one, but for. They heal when we are accepted for who we are. Then we are ok to be ourselves in the world. Little by little.