Hey everyone; I think I did overreact. I talked to my t and she understands my fears. She said that its not what they had discussed. I guess when I saw her; I totally panicked and did not think straight. She told me to phone him and explain what went though my mind. She felt so bad about that experience. Like I say, I am paranoid right now. I feel so stupid; I must have looked totally insane. I just can't believe that I did that. Totall embarrasment. Oh well, I can't change it now, just deal with it. If my doc understands then he will realize what "conclusion" I came up with. My fear was what the heck was I going to do if they were there for me; my kids. But if they were there for me; they would have been at my door. Silly of me. Man, you must all think I am nuts. Fear can sure take over. Maybe in the future they will take this into consideration. I will let you know what happens. I am phoning in about an hour; hoping he won't be as busy. He is there until 7pm and its 4:30 here now.
Thanks everyone; sorry about my stupidity. I am kicking myself for this one big time. I blew my shot at talking to him rationally today.
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