I am so f***ing sick of the real world. All it does is give me situations that I fail again and again and again.

Why the f*** do I have to be in the real world anyway? I know, personal responsibility blah blah blah. There's just no point: I'm too stupid to learn not to make the same mistakes over and over.

I wish I could just retreat into my fantasy world where I'm not constantly getting in trouble because of my stupidity. I just want to give up my job, my schooling, and stay in my apartment and read. I want to have zero obligations so I never have to fail, disappoint, or embarrass anyone else ever again.

I just want to be someone else who's not so utterly repulsive and useless. Why is this such a hard thing to get?