I am also really tired of faking it. I feel like I always have to put this front up, especially around my parents. I dont want to hurt my parents feelings, and I dont want them to know how depressed I am feeling, but I think I am also hurting them by not telling them. I feel like I cant win, because if I would tell the truth they would probably want to send me somewhere or admit me to the hospital. I am trying not to be fake, but I am struggling.