Good for you, Mouse!

BTW, you mention "the return of inner strength and passion that was dripping away as the break went on.." This comment struck a cord within me and I'm interested in some insight. What is it about consistently seeing one's therapist that gives us strength and vitality? what is is about not seeing one's therapist that makes us feel so depressively hopeless and anxious?
The reason I ask is because I have recently begun to see a new t and she's suggested I consider medication for my depression/rage. I told her it's not an option at this time, as I've tried meds in the past and they were not at all helpful in terms of relieving the depression. For me, having a trusting relationship and being able to connect consistently within that trusting relationship, is what helps to relieve the depression. Thing is, because our relationship hasn't yet developed I am not able to reap the benefits.....
Which reminds me of this: my friend tells me there's a song from the Beatles (I'm unfamiliar with it, but if you are this may ring a bell), something about one's friend is one's medication.
When I have a trusting working relationship with my therapist I consider that my medication!
Do others feel similarly?