That is the question that will be reigning every thought in my head for the next week, when my boss returns from vacation.

I was told if I missed one more important session at work, I'd have to be let go. So what do I do this week? I miss an important session at work. I didn't mean to, just like I hadn't meant to the other times. But I've been warned.

Maybe my boss won't find out. Maybe I can fudge the data, make it look like I was signed in later this week, and show up then. If I get caught though, I'm fired, and it will look much worse because I will have shown I was dishonest about it.

I probably will get caught anyway. I'm not smart, and the new administration is really keeping an eye on shenanigans.

I knew I would screw up sooner or later. I knew it was only a matter of time until I get myself fired. I will probably cry and whine about it, because that's how I handle all my problems. I cry and whine and beg for mercy, hoping that I will sound completely repentant over my mistakes, but instead I just sound childish and weak.

I either get fired for slacking off or I get fired for being conniving and dishonest. Both are injurious to any future jobs I might have.

I am so embarrassed about the person I have become. I am a stupid ***** who is getting exactly what she deserves.