My name's Jake. I'm 16, and I've always had self esteem issues, I guess. People tell me I'm great, and some people even suggest that I'm physically attractive, but whenever I see myself in the mirror I just get mad. Firstly I hate everything about my face and body no matter what I do to change it. And then there's my personality.

I am a maladaptive daydreamer, and I've spent most of my life in a fantasy world. In fact, my daydreams turned into such massive parts of my life that I was actually diagnosed with schizophrenia and multiple personalities a year ago. For the longest time the fantasy got in the way of all normal human interactions and now, out in the real world, I have literally no idea what I'm doing. Every time I screw up in a conversation or do something stupid in public I just end up hating myself more. My sexual desires disgust me, my voice is just awful, nothing I do turns out okay, I always make the wrong decisions, and no matter what I do I can't get personal relationships right. It's always wrong, everything I do.

I can't stand myself. I'm such an awful self-critic and I can't stop myself from pointing out everything that I am doing wrong in every single daily situation. I don't know what to do.