You need to tell your T exactly how you feel 100%. Don't hold anything back either. The only way you are going to get better, is to get the proper treatment you need. Your important and your not a nuisance either. This is your T's job to help you. How can he help you if you can't be honest with your real issues? If you can't open up to him, find someone else. It's also possible you don't feel comfortable with him.