Sorry for providing my opinion at this time, as it may even no longer be relevant considering when this was posted, but like the last post I wanted to provide my of perspective on this.

You sound like you've been lonely for a long time, you crave affection. Now you ask yourself why don't I have any friends? Where is that one girl you're suppose to love? Sorry to say, that these are not things that simply happens, they are worked and developed from your own commitments. And you know that. Then the question is, what am I supposed to do to get to this?

The answers you have so far received would almost virtually seem like a big joke because they tell you what you want but not how to get there. I'm fat, then lose weight. I'm lonely, then go out and socialise. Not productive or practical advice in my experience. However, Im not going to give you a complete answer because in truth your going to be on a long journey in order to obtain them. 'answer only have meaning if they have been worked for' I'm just gonna tell you where to take the first step.

Like someone else already said on this board and which you need to work on first, is that you need to learn to appreciate yourself and your attributes. It is the fundementals of confidence. Confidence is knowing that you can contribute to someones life in a positive way and you are proud of that contribution. That contribution can even simply be your unwavering loyalty to someone, your passion in an interests such as art of video games, your need for growth etc. Different people look for different things in a relationship, working on this will allow people to gravitate towards you, since you provide a need or your a source of intrigue. As you maintain this, your contributions to others will develop, grow or you may come to learn or realise you have a lot more to give but as said you must take notice on your positive points and work on them in a practical way.

Bottom line is, you need to love yourself, before anyone can even start to love you. Because no one is going to love you out of pity and people have their own problems to burden, let alone yours. So you MUST learn to love and help yourself as a start.

There is no point being surround by people 'if you still feel lonely amongst them', infact your loneliness is worse this way. so don't rush for peoples affection, until they are deserving of yours. Find your confidence first. Read up on confidence building, read up on losing confidence become an expert on this field but apply it, practice.

The saving grace is that in the histroy of mankind, millions will most likely have been in your situation and their experience will become an important guide for you. Make use of that knowledge and learn from it.

Goodluck.