Thanks DSM , yeah I doubt my dad would read a book . My parents' marriage is exactly that, a sham. I know they don't love each other, probably never have. As a result, I've often asked myself, why the hell did they have me in the first place? Why, when you are better off separated/divorced do you go and get into something that binds you even more to each other? And, here's another thing, they could've chosen not to have me! Yes, that's right, my mom couldn't get pregnant, I am a test-tube baby! Why on earth, when you've got all this choice, do you go and choose something that is the worst option for both of you? It really doesn't make sense.

I don't belong on this earth, I know it. I can feel it in my bones every living day. I don't know why I'm supposed to walk this planet. I don't belong here and never have, I feel like an alien all the time. People don't know what to make of me. I'm asocial, atypical, abnormal, un-integrable on all levels, I don't "gel" with anyone, I don't get along with others, I don't understand others, never have and never will. I've got a serious problem with everything that matters.

I really don't know what's wrong with me.