So here a bit of over view . I have always been a quiet down person . Every since I was little . I just thought that was the way it was . Never took much enjoyment in life or the things around me . Someone very close to me has always told me that I'm a void of emotions . I try to put on a happy face but I never can seem to smile . This same person has also convinced me that mental illness and my thoughts of hurting myself are a sign of weakness . So I dont talk to people because I dont want to me seen as weak . I have a child and shes the only reason I keep fighting . My significant other is a chronic cheater . 6 times in the many years we have been together . That I know of . I continue to stay because deep down I truly do love them but it has caused me to have no self worth . I have talked to counselers and therapist in the past but they dont seem to be able to crack me . I have no support other then my daughter and its not fair to her that she is so strong for me .