Lost, we should be able to walk when we want and where we want. I'm a night operator myself, sleep during the day and wake up at night. And if I should suddenly feel lonely and want to go for a walk at three a.m., then I should be able to do so without fear.

Someone said you've been longing for death for so long and to report this animal. Yes, report him. Let him feel fear for a change. If you die, (unlikely), you die with the satisfaction of knowing that he will spend the remainder of his miserable days watching over his shoulder looking for the cops. He kills you and he spends the rest of his life in jail or he gets put to death. And Rapists are very low on the prison totem pole; everyone in there has a mother, sister or daughter. He won't have a fun time in prison, I promise you.

Go to the cops and tell them everything. Teach this low-life coward the meaning of fear. Talk to someone at a Rape crisis line and ask them for help if necessary. They will help you. Let the police do their job: to serve and protect. How can they protect you if they don't know what happened? If they don't know what happened, then this coward is FREE to DO IT AGAIN.

I know this sort of thing takes courage, but so does fighting mental illness. I know you have it in you. Your testimony can put this pig away for a long time, maybe forever depending on how long he's been pulling this stuff. You can't get into trouble, though his lawyers may try to imply something. YOU DID NOTHING WRONG and this peasant is going to be in a lot more trouble than you'll ever be in.

If you stay silent, the fear will never end. You will regret it for the rest of your life.

A rape is all about power, Lost, exerting power over one who is weaker than oneself to show off. That's why he threatened to kill you and that is why he raped you. It was all about power and control.

Take some of that power back. Report this bastard and see how powerful he looks in handcuffs! You'll feel so much better.

There is a thing more crippling than cerebral palsy: the prison of your own mind.