I'm sorry your pdoc said that to you, but perhaps she meant you just need a higher level of care right now. Sometimes when we're in severe episodes we do. When I was manic/mixed/paranoid, my pdoc made me go to partial as well so she could more closely monitor me and the med changes she was goig to prescribe. I ended up inpatient because I was too unstable even for partial but even fate that she told me I needed to go to partial for awhile before she could take me back as a patient. I was pissed off at the time but she was right, I needed more monitoring than a once a month visit. You're in a severe episode. You need to have a pdoc available to see immediately and often until you get his episode under control.

It will be difficult to sit through groups, not gonna lie. Hopefully your program will be equipped to handle it. I've been to two, one was a DBT program and one a general mental health (the one I'm in now). The DBT program had no sympathy for mania for sure. When I sat out of group because the voices were too loud and aggravating for me they just marked me as willful and resisting treatment. But the one I'm in now understands and lets me sit out if I need to, gives me stress balls if I'm too anxious, etc.

Give partial a chance. I've been in partial/IOP for three months and it's been very helpful in getting me stabilized through a nasty mixed episode and depression. Without it I would have been hospitalized again at least one a more if not twice.

But I am sorry your pdoc made it seem like a lost cause. Maybe a new one will be able to be more hopeful.