Not sure if you're a proponent of AA/NA, but it certainly sounds like getting to a meeting would probably help you. If you can remember the counselor, then search diligently and exhaustively for that advice on how to deal with the issue. And perhaps you can post this same question in the Addictions section where there will likely be many answers to your dilemma. Best to you...and one of the things that I would say to people in recovery was "remember, like all other things, this too shall pass"...