RACEKA, I truly admire your honesty with your t, doesn't matter that you didn't come clean the first time, it takes tremendous courage to do so and wow, at the next session you did! That takes amazing courage! You are an inspiration. Y'see, with this kind of work you're gonna be all right....facing your dragons and taming them. (The Little Prince talks about 'taming' the fox)
Best of luck to you!