Well, half way point of the day. Still really nervous, with the occasional suicidal imagery flashing through my mind, but nothing new and nothing to fear there, I'm pretty at peace with that, recognizing it for what it is, not very much, kind if like minor pain from a knee injury, just a petty symptom.

Mostly I am nervous. Tense. Now working my way through the entire studio discography of the Goo Goo Dolls. Their 2013 album Magnetic is just as good as a couple during their peak popularity in the late 1990s - Dizzy Up The Girl and Gutterflower era. Keep The Car Running from 2013 is a personal favorite for the lines:

Bruised and battered,
Torn and tattered,
Look at me
It doesn't matter
Still got some fight left