Ok, you have some "flight" taking place Mowtown and you can't really pinpoint it. I think that even though you are glad you found a therapist, you still have "anticipation anxiety"
taking place about it. Yes, you are eager to "fix" you, but you are also afraid of it too, something that is a core issue with you. Flight tends to give off a sense of "control" we can't help it, we are designed to be that way so we can "thrive" in a world that has a lot of threats, after all we are really "just animals" even though we have a great deal of intelligence compared to other animals.

I think that once you meet this new therapist and he gains your trust you will calm down.
I think that having therapy on a Friday is good too, that way you will have the weekend to work through any triggers and have some freedom too.

I know it is hard to settle down and accomplish anything when this happens too. Just do your best to help yourself get through this day even though you feel uncomfortable, I know that can be a bit of a challenge, I hear you.

You are gonna be ok, you just have to keep seeing that more and more as you move forward, it takes time (((Mowtown)))). You have really gained a lot, I see it all the time.

(((Calming Hugs))))
OE