I'm not glad any of you are suffering, but I am glad to find someone who felt the same way I have. I'm a 56 year old woman and have been treated for depression for 25 years, and I still don't see the signs! Am I a slow learner or what?

It creeps up on you slowly sometimes, and I think it is natural to accept it as normal as long as you can still function.
Growly Cat, remember if you get in a bad way you can go to the hospital or call 911. Please don't let it get too bad.