You seem "Normal" to me. All you need to do is turn off the self critic, and just live your life. There is no way to be perfect. If you were perfect, you would be just another boring copy of some thing else, that is not You. There are no right decisions, personal relationships are never perfect, and never will be.

Be a Daydreamer, intergrate your multiple personalities, draw each one. Know that we all have and need multiple personalities, it is just a question of accepting each one into oneself in balance.