This is my first post so hey.

I am used to sleeping with dudes left and right and love sex. Insatiable. Before medication I cheated all up, all over the place. I got medication 300 wellbutrin, 200 lamotrogene, .5 loranzpam, 10 mg propanolol, 20 mg ritalin. Haha got quite the assortment.

I started dated the guy of my dreams for six months. Faithful! Holla! I took myself out of situations where I could cheat, and made sure I dedicated more time to my friendships of the same sex and not men because I didn't trust myself.

I worked on a political campaign and spent a significant amount of time with my male coworker. My boyfriend during the day is always working, he is a neuroscientist so I can't talk to him because his mind is in the game and legit I can't distract him. This is difficult because emotionally, I'm needy (ish).

When he isn't available I text my coworker. I have fallen for my coworker and lust after him.

Normally, I can totally control myself, except a month ago I got Mirena and it totally ****ed with my medication (now it's out, but I'm still waiting for hormones to rebalance).

I cannot tell if I am being too needy, or my boyfriend isn't giving me the attention I need, if I am still recovering hormonally?

Normally I am very independent. I work 9-5 love my job, love coming home to my boyfriend, have a crazy awesome sex life, intellectually I am beyond stimulated (and oh my god I love it) ... but the impulse and craving to cheat is PAINFUL. Went out for drinks with my bf and coworker and some other coworkers, and I felt like I was swimming in my coworkers eyes haha legit I was getting so aroused.

Ugh, any insight? Anything? My mind is hazy, and I'm irrational.