But if we look at this more closely, having children doesn't necessarily mean you won't be lonely later on in life. You've only got to look at the amount of elderly people in retirement homes who have families and yet are rarely if ever visited and might go months if not years without a single phone call. Personally i don't want children. I'm still in my early twenties but that doesn't prevent me from being aware of my complete lack of maternal feelings. I know that i'm simply not suited to children and most likely never will be. Life can be fulfilling without them. It's just a case of working out what you would most enjoy devoting your time too.

I suspect my mum regretted having children. I think she loves us in her own twisted way but she doesn't come across like she enjoys parenting in the slightest. Because parenting doesn't stop - it goes beyond a certain age or situation. Kids really are for life. I sympathize with your uncertainty but i suppose it comes down to what you feel you're most willing to risk - a childless future or children that you may well secretly regret and/or a future that could still end up different from the one you expected children would give you. I hope you find answers not to mention peace with the situation.