I go to a meditation group with my husband, and I'm very aware of monkey mind - too much aware! I practice my breathing like you do, but I'm going to try out the posture with the palms open and then down.
He went to meditation tonight and for the first time I stayed home. I just feel so fat and everyone else there is really thin. Is there something I should have said to myself in order to get myself to go? I feel so pitiful! I didn't think meditation is the right place for a crying meltdown!
Hope you don't mind my venting.